Thursday, July 23, 2009

Today

Perhaps if I was a better person/mother/dog trainer I would not be in the situation that I am currently in. I cannot spread myself in all directions. I cannot supervise every situation. I cannot oversee everything. Bravo to those of you who can do those sort of things.

I know that I would never feel entirely comfortable with Quincy around Ruby or other children. Say what you will about supervision and prevention and teaching young children about dogs but the fact of the matter is that it would take all of TWO SECONDS for Ruby to reach out and grab Quincy's ear as Quincy walked by, and then I would have a very bad situation on my hands. And I cannot keep the two separated until Ruby is old enough to understand.

And euthanization is a bullshit answer to this.

We all have our limits. Dogs. Babies. Mommies. I know mine. And I am doing the best that I can given this fucking terrible situation.

I know (and love) my dog. She is a member of my family. I have had her since she was 7 weeks old. Today is her 8th birthday.

Today she is leaving to go live with someone else.

Today my heart is broken.

13 comments:

noswimmers said...

Oh hun...you're doing the very best you can in an all-around crappy situation. Please don't beat yourself up.

Sending strength to you today.

xoxo

Somewhat Ordinary said...

You are doing the best thing for you child. I know it sucks to lose a part of your family, but you can NEVER see everything ALL of the time. Even the best dog in the world has its moments. I hope this doesn't add salt to the wound, but did you see this story about the dog or better yet wolf that carried a baby outside? http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/blogs/pets/detail?entry_id=44107

I LOVE my dogs, but they are both 100 pound labs and I've never left them alone with M. Matter of fact when I finally got pregnant they were no longer allowed upstairs and very rarely leave the kitchen and dining room area. They are animals pure and simple. We bring them into our homes and treat them like our children. But, in the end it is our job to protect our children. You are doing the right thing and hopefully one day soon you will be able to get Ruby a dog that will become her best friend. Plus, look at the bright side she is still in the family!

Emily said...

Oh honey - sending you hugs. What a crappy day. I left a message with my sister but she's out of town for a few days - sorry!

xoxo

annacyclopedia said...

Just sending you big hugs today, Tara. This is not your fault and you are absolutely doing the best thing for everyone here. I hope that whatever advice has been offered to you over this just drifts past you if it doesn't feel right and that you are at peace with this choice for your family and for Quincy. I can't imagine making this decision with my own dog and my heart just aches for you, but you have all my support cause I know you are doing the very best you can in a crap situation. Love and hugs to you.

Aurelia said...

I wish you the best, and I hope it works. Really, I do.

And if Steve's parents aren't able to deal with him, or you end up still not feeling comfortable, then you will have lots of time and space to find him a home with someone else.

Take care, off to see more people at BlogHer--lordie, you have to come next time, you would be such great company!

planningdoesntwork said...

I agree you are doing the right thing. It would be impossible to keep a baby and a dog totally separate. My argument about most dog bites being preventable was for those who think she should be euthanized, not trying to tell you that you need to pay more attention. I kind of knew it was coming out wrong. I'm sorry

Julia said...

I feel your pain, but you did the right thing.

Spacey said...

I'm so sorry you had to make such a hard decision, but I think that you did what you thought and felt is better for your family. I agree that Ruby's safety has to come first. ((hugs))

chicklet said...

I'm just catching up but as an asshole who knows nothing, i think you did the best you could. Your dog is going to a good home, and you're protecting Ruby. It's going to be sad and awful but you're doing a really good thing here with how you've approached this.

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